Bryan is Here!!!!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

IVF Here we come

Yep, you read that right.  We had a phone consult with Dr. RE last night, and it looks like we are headed down the IVF road.  I don't have a ton of time right now, but I wanted to get you guys an update.  We'll get more specifics when I start my next cycle, but we could be looking at retrieval and transfer in late July!  I'm excited and scared and anxious and nervous and hopeful and a whole bunch of other emotions all mixed up.

Dr. RE said the best thing yesterday that totally wraps up how I've feeling about all of the issues we've been facing:
                "Little problems don't add up, they multiply logarithmically"
And so appropriate for the mathematician in me :-)  Anyway, that's all I have for now, I'll write a longer update when I don't have 4 deadlines looming!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Got the call finally...negative. I didn't think I'd be this upset but I am...This sucks.

Still Waiting...

UGH Seriously! How long does it take to run a beta and call a patient with results???  I had my blood drawn at 7 am people!  That was almost 7 hours ago!!!


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Beta Tomorrow

I'm been so crazy busy lately, I've barely had time to think straight.  I'm thankful though, because other than Sunday I haven't really had time to think about the fact that I'm in the 2ww.  A even had to remind me on 2 different occasions that I couldn't have a drink (as much as I may have wanted or needed one).  My beta is tomorrow, and frankly all that positive energy I had 2 weeks ago is gone.  I'm having little twinges of symptoms here and there...nausea that lasts an hour...crazy odd heartburn one day...some tenderness in my bre@sts...but nothing major, and certainly nothing like the last pregnancy.  I just don't feel pregnant.  I know I know, lots of women don't even know they are pregnant until WEEKS after they should because they have no symptoms, and every pregnancy is different, shoot even Kate who knows shes almost 8 weeks pregnant isn't feeling anything (which is cause her all sorts of doubt by the way, head over and leave her a virtual hug if you have a minute).  I'm so guarded anymore.  I can't even bring myself to take an at home test because I don't want to start into that empty white space anymore.  I don't want to see that word NOT ever again. 

And yet I know that if I am pregnant, my due date will be January 18th.  2 days after my Fathers 61st birthday.  That would just be awesome.  I shared a birthday with my grandfather, and it always made me feel so special as a kid.  To have my child share that with their grandfater would be too awesome.

Today is DRAGGING by.  Tomorrow probably will too.  Blood draw at 7am, I don't expect a call until after 3. UGH.