Pause..until Monday

2nd beta results are in.

17.4

Not the 21 or 25 we were hoping for, but still an increase. And increases are good. I go back on Monday for another test. If the numbers go up I keep on keeping on. If the numbers go down or stay the same (less than 20), I stop the meds and let nature do its thing. My cloud 9 is a little deflated, but I'm still being optimistic.

Something in my heart says that this is truly meant to be, but I can't help being a little scared. I'm still going to go ahead with my plans to tell my Dad this weekend, but not the whole extended family like we had originally thought. I think I'm going to need the excitement and happiness over the weekend to get me through.

Thank you for all the kind words and support I've gotten over the last week. It's amazing how my emotions have been all over the place. A keeps saying I'd better be knocked up, becuase if I'm not with these moods swings, I've got serious problems :-)