I'll try to be better about posting updates. I'm hoping once we get past Monday my spirits will lift and I will stop feeling all these negative feelings. Finally being pregnant after so many cycles of trying and failing and trying some more brings with it a whole slew of emotions I wasn't really prepared for. I expected to feel relief and overwhelming happiness. Instead I find myself even more anxious than I was during my 2ww post IVF. Is everything OK? Is there 1 or 2 in there? Are they thriving or has something gone wrong? It almost as if I'm expecting something to go wrong. It just feels too good to be true, and experience has taught me that things that seem too good to be true probably are. I know its totally stupid. There's no reason to believe there's anything wrong, but I'm still paranoid. *sigh* It sucks that infertility does this to us. It sucks all the joy out of the first few weeks of pregnancy and replaces it with anxiety and doubt. Lovely.
Scotland, Part Two
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